I became unwell as I was not able to digest food, and medicine didn’t help me either. Every time I ate, I was feeling sick. I was constantly in pain, Monday to Sunday. I lost a lot of weight due to a suppressed appetite; every single day was a challenge. For the pains would not go away.
There was a time when I was unable to complete my journey; whether by bus, train or car.
It was even worse on the underground trains. There was also a time when I couldn’t sleep properly due to nightmares and insomnia. I was consumed with fear and paranoia, I had not control over this sickness. My condition kept on getting worse.…went from anxiety to a deep depression.
Whenever I would call the ambulance or went into A & E the doctors requested blood tests and the results came back negative. I didn’t know what to do anymore. But, instead of giving up, I decided to turn to the LORD for help. I remember saying to myself,’ If I draw near to God, he will heal me’. Then I said the only way to draw near to God is to follow his ways, so I started to read the bible and follow its teachings. I stopped making the wrong decisions, but whenever I made the wrong decisions, I would do my best to get back on track. In fact, I decided to follow God’s ways.
I had a breakthrough when I came across Romans 10:9. The scripture says, “If you confess with your mouth that JESUS is LORD and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be SAVED”. I chose to believe that Jesus is LORD and that God raised him from the dead. My life was transformed ever since I made the decision to follow Jesus. A few years later, the Lord God began to help me...He is healing me. He has been my healer ever since I got baptised.
Jesus has also renewed my way of thinking. For example, I hate the fact that I was living in sin with someone that was not my husband...we weren't even married. But God forgave me as Jesus died on the cross for our sins.
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God loves you so much… He cares about you. So, whenever you go through difficulties, remember that God is more than able to lift you up and make you whole.
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