I became unwell as I was not able to digest food, and medicine didn’t help me either. Every time I ate, I was feeling sick. I was constantly in pain, Monday to Sunday. I lost a lot of weight due to a suppressed appetite; every single day was a challenge. For the pains would not go away.
There was a time when I was unable to complete my journey; whether by bus, train or car.
It was even worse on the underground trains. There was also a time when I couldn’t sleep properly due to nightmares and insomnia. I was consumed with fear and paranoia, I had not control over this sickness. My condition kept on getting worse.…went from anxiety to a deep depression.
Whenever I would call the ambulance or went into A & E the doctors requested blood tests and the results came back negative. I didn’t know what to do anymore. But, instead of giving up, I decided to turn to the LORD for help. I remember saying to myself,’ If I draw near to God, he will heal me’. Then I said the only way to draw near to God is to follow his ways, so I started to read the bible and follow its teachings. I stopped making the wrong decisions, but whenever I made the wrong decisions, I would do my best to get back on track. In fact, I decided to follow God’s ways.
I had a breakthrough when I came across Romans 10:9. The scripture says, “If you confess with your mouth that JESUS is LORD and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be SAVED”. I chose to believe that Jesus is LORD and that God raised him from the dead. My life was transformed ever since I made the decision to follow Jesus. A few years later, the Lord God began to help me...He is healing me. He has been my healer ever since I got baptised.
Jesus has also renewed my way of thinking. For example, I hate the fact that I was living in sin with someone that was not my husband...we weren't even married. But God forgave me as Jesus died on the cross for our sins.
God loves you so much… He cares about you. So, whenever you go through difficulties, remember that God is more than able to lift you up and make you whole.